I've been thinking about Ego. What does ego mean in a spiritual life? I've been told you shouldn't have one or let it take you over. Well, here is my deal.

My ego is hungry. It wants to be fed. Why can't I sleep? because EGO is rolling around like a hungry caged animal saying feed me, I'm starving. So here is what I am thinking. It is ok to feed your ego, just don't overfeed it, like any other part of you or your life.

I need to change jobs. My spirit says so, my body says so and my ego says so. I need a job that feeds all of these parts of me and my family too. I need a job that will allow me to be home with my daughter more often than not. There is no negotiating on this part. I will raise my daughter. There is a reason we become mothers and fathers and that is to RAISE OUR OWN CHILDREN. Somehow a balance must be reached and I will do this.

I need a job that feeds my ego and my creativity. I need to be in charge of something--projects, etc. I need a job that is nearby and allows me to work from home. Did I metion that already?

Here is the part that is hard to spit out. I need a job that will pay ME, my ego-self, a lot of money. I mean a lot. I'm worth it.

This is what my ego says.
"Feed me, I'm hungry. I am a part of you, too."
I am saying,
"Ok, you shall be feed on my terms. You will not take over my life."

Somewhere there is laughter.
Oh dear coyote up are you up to some old tricks?
Always a lesson, right.

My ego wants to write some more, and I am saying it is time for bed.

Balance. Good night.