An 80's party

I spent several weeks thinking about the party. I was going to wear my clash tee shirt fer shure, my leather jacket and leather hat. All treasures from a previous lifetime.

As I was upstairs looking through my box of junk/treasures, I came across the photo. The one of Jay, Marty and Hoss hanging out on top of the car. Jay and Hoss were lounging, relaxing. Marty, never one to stop moving, was drumming on the roof, wearing my bobby and the midnights shirt. It would have been nice to have THAT shirt for the party.

So now I was bringing three other people with me to the party. I started to remember the fun we had back then, just hanging out and going to concerts sometimes going to school or work. This brought in more people that I would bring to the party. Wayne, Don, Debbie (she WAS debbie back then, now to be called Debra), Shirley, Dave, Angela, etc. Wow this party was going to be crowded. I was thinking about Harold and Maude, Quardraphenia, the Rocky Horror picture show.

I remembered playing mexicali and sitting on the roof smoking clove cigarettes,(yes we actually did this, it's not just a Tom Petty lyric) and the day Jay hopped a freight train. Dancing on the roof of the bank of america building until the cops came.

I wanted to honor this young girl of my past. I had put her away so many years ago as no longer serving the woman that is me now and I am glad I did. That girl deserved to be honored because she is the one who created me. She is the maiden and I am now the mother, one day to be crone.

I got dressed, put food coloring in my hair and boldly walked my 18 year old circa 1982 punk self into the 7-11 and bought clove cigarettes. The woman at the counter did not know what they were. After finally acquiring the final prop that would complete my previous self, I climbed back into our giant Ford F250 truck and my husband and daughter took me to pick up some other friends and drove us to the party.

There were 80's videos playing. The one I remember is Olivia Newton John's Let's get physical. There were lots of others, but that is the one that keeps coming back to me. I supplied my current friends with clove cigarettes and they all smoked joyfully. I did not smoke, being true to my current self even though I was dressed as my old self.

The music was good, although there were very few songs that I actually knew being played. I danced anyway. Marty, Jay, and Hoss and all the others drifted away, leaving me to dance alone in 2008.

Blessed Be

In the blink of an eye

Thank you Ganesh for removing the largest obstacle, my job.

I now invite with an open heart, Lakshmi fill my life with prosperity and financial abundance.

A teacher once pointed out that things can change in the blink of an eye. I have been working the energy of getting out this job for years, and now, in the blink of an eye it has been done. The law of attraction does work! Stating and believing in your intentions creates change in your life.

I am now free to focus on

Raising Olivia and taking care of my family

The advertising and marketing collective

The community garden

My herbalist studies

I am now able to schedule work from home 5 days a week while Olivia is in school and spend the rest of my day focusing on her and family, solving the boundary issue that came up for me in an earlier entry

I want this transition to be smooth and non-stressful for our family

I want to create financial abundance that comes to me easily and frequently by working a flexible schedule in healing work and freelance/contract work.

I want to make friends with money and know that it is ok to save AND to spend with wisdom

I took Olivia to the beach today and walked to the grocery store to buy good, healthy food for dinner tonight.

I feel such a great sense of relief that it is almost indescribable.

I am looking forward to the new chapter in my life.

I've been smiling all day.

I only want congratulations and achieving this milestone.

Everyone is happy that I am home.

My grandparents house

What I want to take from my grandparents house:

Hamburgers in greasy paper bags with french fries and thick chocolate shakes

Downtown

Sunday Dinners

City Chicken

Lake Perch and Bluegill

Fish Fries and Pancake Breakfasts

Halloween

Raking Leaves

The smell of burning leaves in the fall

Community baseball games

The Chicago Cubs

Jigsaw puzzles

Kentucky Fried Chicken

Cokes in the small glass bottles, ice cold on a hot summer day

The front porch

Thunderstorms with lots of lightning in the middle of the night


Souvenirs by John Prine:

All the snow has turned to water
Christmas day has come and gone
Broken toys and faded colors
Are all that's left to linger on
I hate graveyards and old pawnshops
For they always bring me tears
Can't forgive the way they rob me
Of my childhood souvenirs


Memories, they can't be bought'n
They can't be won at carnivals for free
It took me years, to get those souvenirs
And I don't know how they slipped away from me


Broken hearts and dirty windows
Make life difficult to see
That's why last night and this morning
Always look the same to me
I hate reading old love letters
For they always bring me tears
Can't forgive the way they rob me
Of my sweetheart souvenirs