Transition

I used to take a shower before I went to work, meaning having to get in my car, drive somewhere, do some boring and useless task, and bring home a paycheck. Now that I have been working from home for 2.5 months without a paycheck, I am just now coming the realization that I need to take a shower before starting my day. For months I was waiting to take a shower because there was nowhere that we needed to be. Now Olivia asks me where we are going when we clean up and get dressed. While I do believe that it is occasionally ok to hang around in your pj's, perhaps it should be a little less frequent.

Olivia loves to help. She loves to be with me, and I love for her to be with me. She likes to climb on me and pinch my elbows and sleep on top of me and gives me lots of hugs and kisses. She helps me cook, create a garden in the backyard, feeds the dogs, waters the plants, paints the kitchen table, poops on the bathroom floor, pees on the the living room floor, wipes her runny nose on my clothes and cuts her own hair. She takes all of her toys out of the bedroom and brings them into the living room. She likes to help fold clothes. Everytime we drive somewhere all of the babydolls need to be strapped in the car with a kiss on top of their heads. She is constantly testing her boundaries and I have to stay three steps ahead. I read somewhere that the annual salary for a stay at home mom should be around $117,000. Seems kind of low to me.

Nothing is done. I cannot complete a task. I cannot park her in front of the television and do my own thing, she won't even stay there! She turns it off by herself and comes to be with me. My house is trashed, my home business is falling behind, the dogs need to be brushed and walked and I am completely exhausted. I have about a thousand phone calls to make. I need to physically leave my house in order to get a break. An hour at starbucks with a book is heaven. By the way, did I mention that my husband works 60 hours a week outside the home? How did I do all of this and work offsite full time as well?

Olivia and I cannot sleep during the new moon, so that is about 4-5 days of constant energy, then there is the aftermath where both mama and baby are tired and cranky for about another week. It's a vicious circle.

The last two days have been particularly high energy. I keep trying to clean up and do work, but am drawn back to Olivia. I had a business meeting scheduled for 7:00 last night. I called my partner and asked her if we could meet in the bar. I know now why mothers drink a glass (or two) of wine every night. She ended up canceling. I drank wine at home.

I am learning how to make three meals a day and how to sit down with Olivia and eat these meals. The days of wandering around the house and eating whatever, whenever are ending as well. She loved veggies until she started preschool, then suddenly they weren't so cool anymore. How do I get veggies into this girl? Well, the entire family for that matter.

Like learning any new job, motherhood takes time, patience and a little magic.

I had a client come by yesterday at the height of the chaos. I tried to clean up quickly, but she was too fast getting here. The house was, well...Olivia had just done numbers on both the living room and bathroom floors and was brushing her teeth by herself, naked. The dogs were barking and my frustration level was through the roof. But I was laughing. I was smiling while telling my client (and friend) that I was in desperate need of a drink. Not able to take the intense high energy, she left quickly but first surrounded my house in love and white light. Everything calmed down. I lit some incense and played some calming music and made dinner. Olivia ate some.

She slept on top of me last night. I am still smiling this morning and everyday grateful for this beautiful smart child.

Everything will get done in it's own time.

We're going to the beach. :)

Blessed Be

Children's energy workshop

Time

3 hours

Cost 60.00?

Age Range 5-9??

Agenda:
Grounding and centering
1. Becoming a tree. :)

15 minute meditation led by Paige
grounding and centering. Walking with our roots in the ground

10 minute discussion on where and when this ground technique can be used led by Jane

Working with the energy around us.

Short discussion on what energy is
10 minutes

1. Feeling the energy in our hands (Energy Ball)
10 minutes

2. Feeling the energy in our tummys
10 minutes

3. Feeling our neighbors energy
10 minutes

Exploration and Explanation: to work alone or with Paige and Jane
25 minutes

1.5 hours


4. Working with food and break
discussion of energy and vibrations in food. Exercise in making food choices using your internal vibration and the foods vibrations
30 minutes

5. Medicine/nature walk?? Would be great if we can do this.

6. Crystals and rocks
Exploring, feeling handling crystals and rocks. Discussion of what vibrations children feel
20 minutes

7. Coloring and drawing-discussion
Jane-
30 minutes

Close
10 minutes

1.5 hours